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Performance anxiety

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   I´m so nervous. This is my first time. Hands shaking uncontrollably. Never really felt this way. It is like they are not my own. Sweat dripping all over me. All over my face and down my brow. I feel my whole body shake. I don´t feel steady on my own two legs but I know,I will get used to it with time. I know it will be alright. Besides,I have the best tutor. Nerves are natural,he said,and it would be strange not to be nervous. It will get better. Still hear that in my mind,which by the way is a nervous wreck at this point. I can´t think straight. All I can think about is making sure it goes down well,it´s perfect. It´s my first time but still.    Here we are,student and the master so to speak. About to begin the show. I am a wreck and he has seen it all. Thank God he is by my side. I do need the guidance even though we practised a dozen times,i still need all the help I can get I want to be perfect. At the moment he is giving me the talk,it will be alright,he s...

The taste of gold

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His hand was outstretched grasping,clawing and pulling towards the sun. Piece by piece it was disappearing. Slowly, flakes of skin were taken away by the wind,to be one,with the earth it came from.His wedding band was shinning like a star under the sun´s light. It felt so bright and blinding and it would be the last thing he would see. This is what made him the happiest,this is what caused his demise, and it would be the last thing he would see.Poetic. Sky was getting filled with smoke,dark thick smog,everything was turning black around him,the death was near now. Creeping and clawing at him,slowly getting closer.He could taste that shining ring in his throat,cold,acidic metal, leaving a sour taste before his death. The ring was on his hand but everything at that point felt tied to it,because of it. Soon there will be nothing left of him,no trace,nothing but ash and he will be one with the smokey skies and the dark earth.Man was leaving this land but his treasures will stay,his go...