Stories,Stickers and Stamps

Just wanted to say to all my readers Merry Christmas!! I hope you all had a good one and hope you all got what you wanted and either way,celebrating or not..I hope you all are having a great holiday. Thank you for reading my stuff and sticking around.Thank you for supporting me as a writer and showing some kind of interest.Thank you for support and love and thank you for visiting my blog.Once more,Merry Christmas everybody!

   I thought today I will do something a little bit different. I want to talk about writing. Just a thought.My experience. I encourage you all to write.If you do not know where to start, sit down,start writing whatever comes to your mind. Soon a story will start emerging,characters and it is up to you where it goes,what happens,who lives and who dies. Who is the hero and who is the bad guy. It is all up to you. If no clear story comes,maybe you will spot a plot somewhere in there,characters,something you can you in your story. Maybe you had a story in your mind all this time. Put it in writing,put it on the paper,make it real..it just might be better than you think. You might be doubting your skills but nobody is born a writer and it takes practice and from experience you will only get better. You will understand as you write,what works and what doesn’t. Your grammar will improve and you will realise how much freedom as a blogger,as a freelance writer you have,so...

As the title says,this post is a simple thank you, to you all. So.."Thank You"!!! One of the reasons,thanks for hanging around,standing by,checking blog,reading posts. Now,lately..during the time I was gone and just in general during this year and even the last one. Second reason,..pretty big news...*drum roll*..we hit over 2k hits on this blog!Woot!Now,it's a small number in general,small for a blog but..we are growing,getting bigger and better and all thanks to you and this number came from nothing so again,thank you all and everyone who visited blog,been reading,got inspired and keeps coming back..More and more of you keep coming back,blog keeps growing and it would not be possible without you all. It means a lot to me. This blog is my release,it is my corner on this big world wide web. It is combination of my thoughts,memories and imagination and to know that I have you reader's and you enjoy what I write,makes me happy.So here is to 10k hits! Moving swiftly on ...

   Look at you sitting there. Nervous,stressing. All these thoughts rushing through your mind. Why? I guess we both know because you realise how important this is for you,how much you need it,how much you have been waiting for this. All the stress,nerves,they ain’t going to help you. If anything,they will make it worse for you and make you feel sick,so..you might as well stop and relax. After all this time,this is it. There is no going back.There is no other option,this is it,right here,right now. No plan B. Might as well be your awesome self and make them love you. You got so much to show and give.What have you got to loose?Who cares what they will think?This means so much to you so do what you gotta do.    Now,for just a minute,think. Think about what you have been through. What has brought you here and how much it means to you. This should add some fire to your heart and soul. Do you feel it burn?Ignite,start up something big and great inside you..Enough.En...

   Gratitude. That is something that I want to talk about today. From time to time,my blog features a thought or an opinion and gratitude will be the topic today. If you are not interested,that is ok but if you do decide to stay,thank you, and keep on reading. I won’t go on for long but I felt a need to write about this. Having been looking back on my life and this year in particular,I realised that despite what has happened to me,it has made me what I am today. It had made me a better,stronger person and regardless what has happened and how bad it was,there was always a lesson somewhere in there. It has opened my eyes to particular things,it made me a better person and led me to meeting new amazing people.Certain things that I have in my life right now,the people I have in my life,the people I have met,I wouldn’t have met or had in my life if the things prior to this did not happen. I guess what I am trying to say in my complicated way,is that,regardless of what happens ...

Suspended. Suspended in time and space. Ethereal. Music is a blur. Can’t make out the words,all I hear is a beat. Lost in thought,in myself. What to do?How to be?What’s next?Words,rumblings,tremors across the busy mind. Eyes wide open,staring at the ceiling..stillness,calm,peace. Blank. Blank canvas of the white ceiling clearing the clutter of the mind leaving it blank and empty. Lying there on the bed,now head clear,empty. Lost in the moment,right here right now.This time I hear the lyrics. They sing the song of loss and love,a new hope and a better future. The memories of that what was and used to be and the new beginnings,the optimism for a better tomorrow and the sadness for that what was. It makes me think,wonder,once more I am afloat,wondering, wanderer . The times we had,memories,the past and the present. How times change. Back to it,back with it.The music zones in and out as the thoughts begin to come back,rushing,running,flowing,throwing themselves at me. Forcing...

   Late evening. The sun has made way for the moon. Full moon shinning bright like a mirror catching the light,making the world look at itself,look at the sky,forcing me to think. Stars cover the dark night sky like a tiny little pebbles on the warm sunny beach. Here I am,alone,slowly walking down the road.Legs intertwine,favourite song playing through my mind. Time seem to stand still in this dark,quite emptiness. Lonely streetlights illuminate the way, like a runway of a fashion show, where, I am the star tonight. I take the small steps forward,step forward with the beat of the song,closer and closer to home,lost in my thoughts,swallowed up by my own mind.What’s new, eh ? Thinking,looking back on tonight,what has happened? How we got here,why…Was it a good thing or a start of something bad. Time will tell. What won’t break us,will only make us stronger,right?Isn’t that what people say?I’m exhausted,tired,worn out. I can’t fight anymore,not tonight. I am done.Y...

   The Rushing River. Such a beautiful thing. Water flowing,birds take a swim,have a wash,dogs mess around,playing games. Such a nice summer’s day. Greenery all around,from trees to grass,you can see,smell and feel the life and the energy of the nature all around.    The river is relentless. It does not stop.It keeps on going,keeps on moving,it has a direction,a purpose,the flow. Tiny little waterfalls along the way,make waves,forcing the waves to smash and crash into each other.Turning the sweet mellow river into something darker and more menacing.    Here I am,on the edge,standing,watching.Hypnotised,mesmerised,lost.Perplexed as to why, but I cannot stop looking at the energy the river gives off,at the rush of the nature. I am being called,things happening all around but I am lost,consumed in thought.Away. The movement of the river,waves,water,nature itself, it’s hypnotic. It is calling for me,it has my attention and doesn’t let go as if a muse,si...

It seems like it is becoming a habit of mine but here is an obligatory "Sorry I was quiet,down but not out" post. It was not that long ago, since I wrote that life has been taking over my writing and different things were getting in the way, and I was asking you to be patient with me. I tried to write and keep it up and yet,we back to square one. I think the main idea here, is that I'm dealing with a day job and a little bit complicated personal life so what I am asking you,is to be patient with me,keep checking on the blog if you can and or feel like it and I will put up content when I can. I do not think this period of busyness and weirdness will last long but it's not over yet. I need concrete schedule and time to know when I can write and how much time I have. Having said all that. I do have some ideas in my mind and I am very eager to put them on paper. I can't wait for you all to read them and I do miss writing. Hope you bear with me,hang around,keep checkin...

   Two powerful forces locked in the eternal struggle for domination.Both focus their entire existence on annihilation of the other.Eternal never ending struggle goes on to this day. Ground shakes all around them,cracks under pressure,dust rises into the heated air. It is hard to breathe,the air is warming up with every passing second as they both struggle and keep at it for hours and day,months and years. With every passing second,more and more of the ground breaks away,the air gets increasingly warm, polluted with hatred and anger. These two forces destroy everything in their way,everything around them. They only have eyes for each other and each one is focused on tearing the other apart. Both powerful beings,pure energy,both of equal might and one can never topple the other. People around look on in distress,their world is changing as the forces are locked in combat,the world as they know it is changing and it affects everyone around. It is only a matter of t...

   Beat.The base pumping through the headphones into your ears. Going through to your brain and making you move. It makes you flow,live the moment,and channel the energy in you. Movement is electric,from the head to toe, the beat is coursing through you. It feels good,happiness,bliss. Lost in the moment,all worries forgotten,nothing quite like it. You are the one with the music you are listening to,you are part of the beat as it courses through you. The lyrics remain in your mind and you know the words before they even sung. You go with the flow and sing the song that makes your day today.Top of the world,electric,hypnotic and it feels good. Lost,escape. Energy in the air,lost in the song and the beat,you sweat,giving it all you got. It glistens in the light as it shines on your face and you are the start right now,right this moment. They love you. Ecstasy,heaven,escape. 

   Red light.Stopped the car.Waiting. Hot summer day. In the car,windows down. Hands at the wheel and there you are. Walking down the street with him. It seems like it was almost yesterday since we broke up and yet,it seems like you have moved on. Fast. So many years together,all of the memories,the good the bad. All down the drain,gone in an instant. It’s funny how easy it is to throw it all away,how easy it was for you to move on. Just like that,you got another guy. Parading around,showing him off. Big man.    My eyes widen,I cannot believe it. Short messy red hair,slender,that face,the smile..he looks, just like me. You did not want me so you got another guy instead.He looks just like me. It’s sad. You had me and we could have had it all,but you let it all burn.You will never have with him what we had,he will not be like me,it will never be the same. You keep him close and hold his hand,remember when it was me?I’m sorry,you can’t have me back.He may look li...

Alone.On the road. Kicked and kicked out. Struggling,fighting. Looking and searching.No goal,no destination,no beginning no start to the journey. Always on the road,on the move,keep going forward,never look back. No family,lonely,by himself.No place to call home,nobody to call his own. Nothing to come back to,nowhere to go to.No love.Broken,heartbroken,useless,discarded. Used and abused,bruised and shattered. No love,no hope just sex,survival,struggle. From day to day,from sunrise to sunset. Seen,heard,knows and struggles. Fights it,numbs it,never looks back. Moving on. Keeps going. New people,new faces,new voices,new memories. Same notions,no devotion,broken,shattered,left behind and leaving behind. Back on the road,alone and lonely. New chapter,same story. New day,same life. Hoping,praying,struggling,surviving.   

   With you I feel alive. On top of the world,euphoria. You make me happy,make me smile. Every touch is a jolt of electricity running straight to my heart. Coursing through my veins,static.Every kiss is flame melting the hard ice shell, frozen up through the years. I’m aflame,alive,electrified and enthralled. When we together,time stops,frozen,just you and I.Us. Fireworks, in the skies full of stars and yet we see just dark and the colours we make. When we apart,heart aches,breakes and shakes. Begs and screams for you, to come back. Lost confused and begging for more. This love is dangerous,it’s an incurable infection that is spreading fast. It takes hold,doesn’t leave and makes you loose all control. Our love is the rain in the desert and the storm on the brightest day. It’s up and down,it’s hope and despair. Tears,euphoria..You give me all. A storm wrecking the island of me, with the tender embraces and the hot summer kisses. The storm, floods my heart and leaves me cru...

   Adrift, in the cold emptiness of the never ending dark. Floating through time and space,lost,alone. Nothing is around,nobody is close by. Just you and the vast big emptiness. Relaxed,letting go,floating. Slowly moving forward into deeper nothingness with no fear,excitement or any emotion. Just there,just afloat,adrift. Bodies of rock,big and small pass by,slowly rotating and slowly moving on,passing by, themselves. The rock has no purpose, yet it still keeps on floating forward. Stars shine in the distance. A messenger,a memory,a figment of the past. A new hope for the better tomorrow and a clarity for the moment that is now. A guide,slowly joined by the others,ever watchful. Guiding,calling,comforting and encouraging.    The thoughts creep in,hard to let go..the past,the present and the future but the moment demands clarity. To keep on moving forward, the moment demands clarity in order to keep the journey going. A massive space body,gas,light,an insignifi...

   Curse. It’s as if..it’s as if you trying to do things,get things done,get what you want but no matter what you do,how much you try,no matter what,you can’t. You have this feeling,this desire you want to fulfil.You keep pushing,keep getting things done,you get closer,so close but it is never quite enough. So close but not enough. You know what you want,you have an idea of how to get it. You try,you fail,you keep trying and you being optimistic but it never quite works out. It’s frustrating,it’s infuriating,it’s sad and sometimes you just feel like you had enough. Like you done,you can’t no more. It feels like a cruel joke. You have been created,no matter how you believe you were,you were..and you are the way you are,so you pursue the things you want and the things that define you and what you stand for. You stumble and fall and you get up and keep on going and you keep pushing and you keep falling and it feels like it is never enough. It feels like a cruel joke. You are...

I know some of you were concerned about my well being lately. That is very thoughtful,thank you. I can understand how it might seem I'm in the bad place with some dark sad stories I post.But,I am ok. the stories I write are inspired by imagination,other works of fiction,memories and experiences.So quite often it's just the flow taking over and creating the story. Sometimes my stories are driven by the emotion of the moment but it is nothing that I cannot handle and happens to everybody.I have been through some stuff and I know if it gets bad,there is always help. So,if you yourself suffer from anything from heartbreak to depression to just being sad..remember you are not alone. Happens to me,to the others,that's life..If it gets bad,seek some help,just talk to your friends. Cliche but..it gets better. Talking helps. Anyways..Guys,everyone,take care,talk to those close to you,you are not alone,I'm always here and I am OK..it is all good and when emotions take hold it is ...

    It is like any other morning this summer, but this time I actually stopped and paid attention. This time I actually saw what was around me.    This morning the skies were clear and blue. The beautiful vibrant kind of blue. You could see the soft light in the horizon coming from the rising morning sun. It felt warm,bright.It felt serene and made me happy. Made me appreciate the day that little bit more. The streets were quiet and empty, with occasional car passing by, being the precursor for the rush to come,as the sleepy world was slowly waking up from it’s long slumber. Waking up from the dark and quiet into the world of light and motion. You could feel the energy slowly rise on the street with the morning light, as the sleepy world was waking up and people were getting ready for the day ahead.    The nature around was complementing and adding to the picture of the wonderful morning and the beautiful day to come. The lush,vibrant green’s all a...

   Struggling. Slowly descending into the deep, dark water's below. It's as if I'm grabbing for something that is not there,reaching,trying but to no avail. Nothing but emptiness,the vast empty open of the murky underwater.I am being pulled.Lower,deeper,it's getting darker and heavier. I'm grasping for air,trying to breathe but the air is not there.Waves smashing against me.Throwing me back and forth.Struggle.A fight. A violent brawl.It's difficult to stay afloat. I am trying I am fighting but I am being pulled deeper. Energy leaving me.Getting weaker. body is nothing but the stone now.I struggle with the last of my energy..Until..until i give up. No energy left,empty body,a struggle lost and the darkness has won today. My body slowly carried by a wave,pushed and pulled until it is smashed deep in the waters. Water pushes on me harder,drags me down,no energy,no air,just a floating body. A remnant of that what was. A body stripped of what made it me. In the last ...

  As the days of yesterday were moving out of the view,new dawn has begun. The dawn of new beginnings. Fresh starts and new stories. People are are rushing but somewhere out there,there’s your new best friend. Your love,your new hobby and new favourite book. The possibilities for all the new’s are endless. That next person you might talk to,might be your new lover or your new best friend. They might open your mind and turn it upside down. They might totally mess you up,you and that mind of yours but you will never know til you try,you will never know til you let go and go with the flow. That new person might open new horizons,teach you new things and guide you to new places. They might open your eyes to the things you have never seen before and let that side of you,of thought was sleeping. They might bring out the best in you,they might bring out the worst but the experiment is worth taking as you will never know until you jump and life is all about the jumps. The many jumps y...