Our curse

   Curse. It’s as if..it’s as if you trying to do things,get things done,get what you want but no matter what you do,how much you try,no matter what,you can’t. You have this feeling,this desire you want to fulfil.You keep pushing,keep getting things done,you get closer,so close but it is never quite enough. So close but not enough. You know what you want,you have an idea of how to get it. You try,you fail,you keep trying and you being optimistic but it never quite works out. It’s frustrating,it’s infuriating,it’s sad and sometimes you just feel like you had enough. Like you done,you can’t no more. It feels like a cruel joke. You have been created,no matter how you believe you were,you were..and you are the way you are,so you pursue the things you want and the things that define you and what you stand for. You stumble and fall and you get up and keep on going and you keep pushing and you keep falling and it feels like it is never enough. It feels like a cruel joke. You are what you are and the way you were made and you pursue what you are passionate about, but you just keep on failing. The time,the place,the people..they all let you down,it just doesn’t work. It feels like it is easier to give up. What’s the point.Makes you feel so miserable and sad and bad and you just want to breakdown. But..funny thing is,you still keep on going..why?Why is that?We pursue what we want,we stumble and fall like babies,over and over and yet..we keep on going. It is frustrating,we get angry and sad and many things have an affect on what we trying to achieve and yet we still keep on pushing. It is like we are a sucker for a good punishment. Issues much?We are hard wired to keep on pushing,pursuing,striving for better and reaching that goal. We gotta do it..Some of us give up,fall,fail,breakdown. Some of us have the guts and the strength to keep on pushing. Not everyone can and it is not bad if you can’t no more.Just don’t give up,keep trying,keep pushing,keep reaching.One day you will get there,all this hard work will be worth it. Money invested paid off,search for the love of you life will bring you the best years with that loved one and just your happiness. Regardless what you looking for,it is worth your happiness,you are worth it. If it breaks you into pieces,you owe it to yourself to take care and back down and not to tear yourself up.There is a new day,new week,new month and next year. Never too late,life is too short so live now,you are here,you are now,it is not late.Do it. If you do feel like you can’t no more,take a break,take a breather and relax,back down,unwind and get better,get back at it or maybe it is not worth it. Your sanity is worth more,your body is worth more. Only you know how much you are willing to take so listen to yourself and take care of yourself.

   Sometimes it feels like we are cursed. Pursuing that,which we are passionate about,that which we are programmed to like and or love only to fail over and over and over and not reaching it.So close but no..just keep on pushing,keep going at it and it will come your way,not this time,next time,not next time,the one after.Don’t give up,just don’t wreck yourself along the way. If you are not there to collect your prize so what’s the point of all this work..