Taking that step
The husk. Nothing
but the empty husk left of the person you used to be. Drained of all life. Lost
all love within you. Tired of crying. Angry and sad. Not hungry,sleeping all
the time. No light please,I just want to stay in the dark today. They all try to
get you out of the bed but you just don’t feel like it. They want you to eat
but you are not hungry and even sick. You don’t want anything,you don’t want
anyone. You want to be left alone. A Husk of what you used to be. A shell of
your former self. Distorted,twisted,empty used and hurt by other people. You do
not have the energy or strength to carry on. You do not want to keep going with
this,see this,deal with this and want to run away. Run away from you life right
now,run away from you life as is and forget it all. Every time you think about
the run,you remember it all. You have the memories and there is no running. No
matter how far you run,you run from yourself and the memories catch up with you
and what you are. The best way to get to the other side is not to run but
embrace the hurdle,take your time,get ready,make the jump and walk forward.
Take your time,don’t run,be kind to yourself and once you ready,take the step.
Step after step until you walk or run. Do it when YOU are ready,take your
time,step at a time.
People
watch,judge,sympathise. They say they understand the pain but the pain is only
yours as it is you who are going with it and you feel like nobody can help. All
hope seems false but you will not know until you embrace it. Hope is there to
lift you up,get you up and moving. It is there to help you make the first step
over that hurdle,over that which is in your way and get you going. False or
not. It is there to lift you up and give you something to walk towards so
embrace it for what it is,take your chance and start your walk. There just
might be something after all at the end of the line for this particular track.
Time changes
all,from people to places. Memories get cemented,some are forgotten. If the
memory is so strong it cripples you,don’t let it. Keep it,build on it,learn
from it and make it work for you. Let it make you stronger and let it be your
running shoes on your track forward. You will feel like you are getting tired
facing the hurdles even if you keep pushing and build on your memories to make
you stronger but it is ok. Take your break,take your time. Remind yourself of
the fight you fighting and the journey you making. Remind yourself all that you
been through,all that you fighting for and working towards. Let it push and guide
you. Let it fuel you and move you. Don’t let the husk and the shell of that
what was,drag you into the past. You are better than that,you can do better,you
deserve better so push pull,one step a time. Past all the hurdles,moving
forward and before you know you will be just where you wanted to be and the
world will be your’s to shape. Your life will be yours to mold,it is up to you
and nobody else. So take that step and see what happens. Move past that what
was and walk towards your future. Fuel yourself to fight for what might be and
give yourself that hope. You deserve it and you can do it. So get on your track
and start walking,because you can do it.
P.S. this is part of little story series on depression,being down and how to move on.Speaking from experience guys..
P.S. this is part of little story series on depression,being down and how to move on.Speaking from experience guys..
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